where to start..

what a hectic week..

been travelling around the country so much..havent taken time to fully rest.

Oh..something to announce..ive been transferred to KL!

Have somewhat mixed feelings about it..i havent shared a house with anybody continuously since 2 years ago i think..

Im gonna miss a lot of things..my house in Kuantan, the peaceful and less stressful work environment, my privacy..

My personal space has shrunk..it used to have the whole house to myself. Now, i only have a room. My cats are displaced. They used to have the house to themselves. Now, the only have a cage.

I used to drive a lot. And i enjoyed it..now, i have to use the LRT as a mode of transport. I hate that. Makes me dizzy.

Some will be happy with the move. Sure, im closer to family. But i dont see them often anyway. The have they're own life. And being with them makes me feel left out. Some will tell me to settle down. Sure, i want that too. But i cant just grab the next person i meet and get married. thats so reckless.

I'm restless, even before i report duty on 3rd Jun. I dont know if i can get used to this. I have to put my pet supply store on the back burner. Until when im not so sure.

It's sad. I want to do something that will make me happy. Even that, i cant do coz there's always someone telling me that i cant do it..telling me its stupid to just up and quit your job for something so uncertain. Someone i trust and look up to for approval. Psychologically, its crippling.

I'm tired..mentally, physically, emotionally..

procrastinating..where did my discipline go?

I am really excited to start my new venture..im constantly thinking about it..the things i need to do..this and that..i want to do it! Dont know where to start but i want to get the ball rolling!

BUT...

there it is..its a big one..

I promised to plan it in my own free time..i promised myself that i wouldnt let my current work slide because although this new venture might very well become my new life, i have the current one to live in..the one where i still have to go to work and finish projects and assignments and pay the bills using the salary that employer is giving me..

i thought i could use this weekend to get the ball rolling..i had so many plans in my head..

but someone dropped a bomb on me the day before the weekend started and now im left with (1) a proposal draft to write due for Monday with revisions the day before..(2) a proposal draft that will never see the light of day in a meeting room but just as a backup info (that i still have to do!)..but im not sure on the due date for that..

and..the after starting draft number (1), it gave me an idea to create proposal draft number (3) for the new venture im embarking..sort of like a personal proposal to show my financer that im serious..and i can handle this on my own..

i know i can do this..but i need to finish (1) and (2) first..
thats the frustrating part..my mind has jumped straight to (3)..

i have to prioritize and put my 'mkn gaji' work first..but its so hard..just feel like dumping my job and focusing all my efforts on this project..but thats my heart talking and not my head..

need to use my IQ instead of EQ..

Hence, the blog title, procrastinating and discipline..2 things im having a problem with rite now..

i know i shud be doing the (1) and (2) but i seem to be dragging my feet..
i did start a bit and managed to do half of (1) but my mind tend to wander..*sigh*
even now..im blogging instead of writing up the proposal..

i used to have more discipline that this when i was in UTP..

Signing out for now..hope i can now focus on doing wat i shud be doing..

Changing my Point Of View..the sooner i can get it done..the sooner i can move to more exciting things.. :D

Ciao!

kucing_malassss...lazy cat..

Wow..i've forgotten that i even have this blog!

Its been such a long time since i graduated and moved from student life to working life..
In many areas, i feel ive changed..or maybe evolved would be the most apt word.

So many things have happened in my life since the last post..good and bad..but this rediscovery of this blog is  so timely its weird.

Just as i am on the verge of turning a new leaf and embarking on a new adventure, i suddenly decide to start a blog and unconsciously search for blogspot. I cant believe that all my past posts were very nicely being preserved here until now!

And looking back (or rather reading), its seems like my Uni days were so full of childish dramas..too inconsequential compared to the real life..my, how i've grown..not only me..everything else too..

Sooo...i deleted all my past posts..im supposed to be turning a new leaf remember..forgetting the past..and focusing on the future!

Lazy Cat..has a nice ring to it..feels like it was fated..

Maybe in the future..'Lazy Cat' will become a familiar name.. to pet owners out there..just maybe..fingers crossed..:)